Losing myself....

An older post of mine....


Everyone has their moments right?

For my group of friends, i am usually the 'pillar of their strength'. A place where they turn to for advise or just someone to talk to. I'm generally quite positive person but hey, i am entitled to have my down moments too right?

I've realised recently that i am losing my sense of self.

Experiences in life has left me ignorant and aimless. I've just been drifting in life of late that i find myself just going through day by day with no real destination. Just surviving.

Somewhere along the line, i made a decision to not care too much anymore. Not to be too affected by anything or anyone. Not to give anyone the WHOLE me just to be taken advantage of, lied to, used, disrespected, taken for granted (that i will always be there), etc.

I managed to restrain trusting myself to trust my judgement. What i thought was right back then turned out so totally wrong. All that's left is pure silence and a total numb feeling....

Have you ever felt like you're losing bits of yourself?

p.s. : I WILL get over this eventually....just not tonight. Hey, I am NO victim. This is MY moment.