Wednesday, June 18, 2008

When is too much, just too much?

I have been told I am toooo sensitive. Well, maybe I am for matters close to my heart.

But there’s no denying I am ‘macho’ on the outside. Ha ha….

But how can i just stand back and watch a real good friend make such a big mistake? Especially when we've spent hours talking about it?

You should NEVER ever let anyone make decisions for you. Life changing decisions. And if they do, then you should change ur 'story' to the world and be accountable for your actions.

Your decisions. Your choices. Your life.

Among my best friends, given the permission, they know they will get 'in-ur-face' responses from me. And i tell u, it is NOT easy being so harsh and direct. But somebody's got to do it, right? And really, i'd rather have a 'in-ur-face' friend then someone who agrees to everything you say or do. I don't need cheerleaders in my life, all the time. Some brutal honesty would be great sometimes.

But it is not easy. This morning, we were exchanging texts - her decision to continue with the wedding - and i was like crying in bed while texting her the 'in-ur-face' messages. She even told me she needed my OK for this. That it would mean alot to her. I was so frustrated i cried but texted her that she does not need my OK for anything. This is her decision. I just needed her to understand that.

It's true.... i guess i did my part. The rest is up to her. After all she has been through, i honestly hope this is a good thing. Cuz she deserves it.

*fingers crossed*

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