I spent last night clearing stuff in my room - throwing away and packing what i need.
I came across old photos, letters, journals so it took me hours as i sneezed my way through the old memories. Plane tickets, receipts, countless letters, cards i never managed to pass on, journals -- what shall i do with them all? I ripped the old letters and plan to burn the journals real soon. Some things are better left as that - memories.
And i found a fantastic phrase -- i ripped the paper last night and will post the phrase here soon. About how nothing is lost --- no matter what. Along those lines la.
I get a little panicky now when i think about Saturday - that's when Operasi 'Move Out' happens. I have decided to leave my things at a friend's and live out of a suitcase for a month or so.
Why? I have big decisions to make for myself......
'When you love someone so deeply they become your life,
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside,
Blindly i imagined i could keep you under glass,
Now i understand to hold you i must open my hands
And watch you rise
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
I have learned that beauty has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage to be all that I can
And truly feel your heart will lead you back to me when you're ready to land
I can't pretend these tears aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly
Monday, June 23, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Quirky kissing facts
Ohmy...i read an interesting article. Perfect on a Friday morning! :)
It's below but look at number 8 (hey! my lucky number!!) --- An average woman kisses 29 men before she gets married!?!! Oh man, i got a loooooooong way to go. Gotta hurry! ha ha... *muuuahh*
10 quirky facts about kissing
By Laura Schaefer
Think you know a thing or two about kissing? You probably do. But the facts below are so off the beaten path, we’ll bet you don’t know them all—and they could come in handy. Not only could they provide some steamy “Did you know…?” chit chat, but they’ll help you see all the benefits a satisfying lip lock can bring into your life. Happy smooching!
1. Two out of every three couples turn their heads to the right when they kiss.
2. A simple peck uses two muscles; a passionate kiss, on the other hand, uses all 34 muscles in your face. Now that’s a rigorous workout!
3. Like fingerprints or snowflakes, no two lip impressions are alike.
4. Kissing is good for what ails you. Research shows that the act of smooching improves our skin, helps circulation, prevents tooth decay, and can even relieve headaches.
5. The average person spends 336 hours of his or her life kissing.
6. Ever wonder how an “X” came to represent a kiss? Starting in the Middle Ages, people who could not read used an X as a signature. They would kiss this mark as a sign of sincerity. Eventually, the X came to represent the kiss itself.
7. Talk about a rush! Kissing releases the same neurotransmitters in our brains as parachuting, bungee jumping, and running.
8. The average woman kisses 29 men before she gets married.
9. Men who kiss their partners before leaving for work average higher incomes than those who don’t.
10. The longest kiss in movie history was between Jane Wyman and Regis Tommey in the 1941 film, You’re in the Army Now. It lasted 3 minutes and 5 seconds. So if you’ve beaten that record, it’s time to celebrate!
It's below but look at number 8 (hey! my lucky number!!) --- An average woman kisses 29 men before she gets married!?!! Oh man, i got a loooooooong way to go. Gotta hurry! ha ha... *muuuahh*
10 quirky facts about kissing
By Laura Schaefer
Think you know a thing or two about kissing? You probably do. But the facts below are so off the beaten path, we’ll bet you don’t know them all—and they could come in handy. Not only could they provide some steamy “Did you know…?” chit chat, but they’ll help you see all the benefits a satisfying lip lock can bring into your life. Happy smooching!
1. Two out of every three couples turn their heads to the right when they kiss.
2. A simple peck uses two muscles; a passionate kiss, on the other hand, uses all 34 muscles in your face. Now that’s a rigorous workout!
3. Like fingerprints or snowflakes, no two lip impressions are alike.
4. Kissing is good for what ails you. Research shows that the act of smooching improves our skin, helps circulation, prevents tooth decay, and can even relieve headaches.
5. The average person spends 336 hours of his or her life kissing.
6. Ever wonder how an “X” came to represent a kiss? Starting in the Middle Ages, people who could not read used an X as a signature. They would kiss this mark as a sign of sincerity. Eventually, the X came to represent the kiss itself.
7. Talk about a rush! Kissing releases the same neurotransmitters in our brains as parachuting, bungee jumping, and running.
8. The average woman kisses 29 men before she gets married.
9. Men who kiss their partners before leaving for work average higher incomes than those who don’t.
10. The longest kiss in movie history was between Jane Wyman and Regis Tommey in the 1941 film, You’re in the Army Now. It lasted 3 minutes and 5 seconds. So if you’ve beaten that record, it’s time to celebrate!
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
When is too much, just too much?
I have been told I am toooo sensitive. Well, maybe I am for matters close to my heart.
But there’s no denying I am ‘macho’ on the outside. Ha ha….
But how can i just stand back and watch a real good friend make such a big mistake? Especially when we've spent hours talking about it?
You should NEVER ever let anyone make decisions for you. Life changing decisions. And if they do, then you should change ur 'story' to the world and be accountable for your actions.
Your decisions. Your choices. Your life.
Among my best friends, given the permission, they know they will get 'in-ur-face' responses from me. And i tell u, it is NOT easy being so harsh and direct. But somebody's got to do it, right? And really, i'd rather have a 'in-ur-face' friend then someone who agrees to everything you say or do. I don't need cheerleaders in my life, all the time. Some brutal honesty would be great sometimes.
But it is not easy. This morning, we were exchanging texts - her decision to continue with the wedding - and i was like crying in bed while texting her the 'in-ur-face' messages. She even told me she needed my OK for this. That it would mean alot to her. I was so frustrated i cried but texted her that she does not need my OK for anything. This is her decision. I just needed her to understand that.
It's true.... i guess i did my part. The rest is up to her. After all she has been through, i honestly hope this is a good thing. Cuz she deserves it.
*fingers crossed*
But there’s no denying I am ‘macho’ on the outside. Ha ha….
But how can i just stand back and watch a real good friend make such a big mistake? Especially when we've spent hours talking about it?
You should NEVER ever let anyone make decisions for you. Life changing decisions. And if they do, then you should change ur 'story' to the world and be accountable for your actions.
Your decisions. Your choices. Your life.
Among my best friends, given the permission, they know they will get 'in-ur-face' responses from me. And i tell u, it is NOT easy being so harsh and direct. But somebody's got to do it, right? And really, i'd rather have a 'in-ur-face' friend then someone who agrees to everything you say or do. I don't need cheerleaders in my life, all the time. Some brutal honesty would be great sometimes.
But it is not easy. This morning, we were exchanging texts - her decision to continue with the wedding - and i was like crying in bed while texting her the 'in-ur-face' messages. She even told me she needed my OK for this. That it would mean alot to her. I was so frustrated i cried but texted her that she does not need my OK for anything. This is her decision. I just needed her to understand that.
It's true.... i guess i did my part. The rest is up to her. After all she has been through, i honestly hope this is a good thing. Cuz she deserves it.
*fingers crossed*
Monday, June 16, 2008
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
I am the master of my own destiny
Okok....this is the last tarrot reading i will reveal. I promise!
Just thought it was pretty interesting. ---> to decide whether to act morally, or forsake ethics for personal gain. Hmmmm.... *pensive while stroking chin*
The Magus
The Magus is the master of his own destiny and unafraid to act as he chooses. By setting specific and attainable goals, the Magician utilizes his great knowledge and wisdom to succeed where others have failed. He is the master of his own destiny. Although, with such power comes great responsibility. The Magician must decide whether to act morally, or forsake ethics for personal gain.
Just thought it was pretty interesting. ---> to decide whether to act morally, or forsake ethics for personal gain. Hmmmm.... *pensive while stroking chin*
The Magus
The Magus is the master of his own destiny and unafraid to act as he chooses. By setting specific and attainable goals, the Magician utilizes his great knowledge and wisdom to succeed where others have failed. He is the master of his own destiny. Although, with such power comes great responsibility. The Magician must decide whether to act morally, or forsake ethics for personal gain.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Tarrot card today says....DEATH!!!
Death
This card is commonly misconstrued and does not specifically pertain to physical death. The Death card signifies change in your life brought about by the ending of a current situation and the beginning of a new one. While the card itself may be morbid, it actually represents exciting change in your life. Be prepared for new and exciting situations to develop.
This card is commonly misconstrued and does not specifically pertain to physical death. The Death card signifies change in your life brought about by the ending of a current situation and the beginning of a new one. While the card itself may be morbid, it actually represents exciting change in your life. Be prepared for new and exciting situations to develop.
Friday, June 6, 2008
Embracing change
Seems like this year is all about CHANGE for me.
My dad told me sometime in February that he plans to move to his house in Seremban by the end of the year. And i was like ' end of the year? ohh ok' -- thinking i have plenty of time to save up and find a place to stay on my own. Then things cropped up, and my dad kept changing his mind to move in August, then July and suddenly he tells me JUNE!! Arghh...
It is exciting this new chapter in my life. I decided that i will find a place further away due to budget constraints, and also cuz i do not wanna share an apartment with a stranger, nor let out a room so i can afford an apartment in Damansara Perdana or Kelana Jaya or wherever.
So i have been spending the past weekend driving around and looking at apartments. Last Monday, i had an appointment with an agent and he showed me a 3+1 apartment!Arghh...i was like 'What would i need so many rooms??'.
So the hunt is still on.......
I'm not even sure i'll fix an Astro for the apartment - heck, i will let dad have the tv! Hmm... i might have to find a new job to live comfortably! :) Yes, i know...i know...it has only been a little over 6 months with this job. *itching*
What i look forward to?
1. My own space .... no need to be 'decent'!! ha!!
2. My own stuff and decor (existing stuff)
3. An empty apartment - minimal furnishing
4. Cooking @ home more often - pastries, soups, hmm...
5. Finally displaying my candles and lamps!! yeayy!!
Ok, now i am getting excited all over again...nervous yet excited. Nervous about being really alone yet excited with the prospect of finally living on my own.
Now let's just go find that apartment, ok? *fingers crossed*
My dad told me sometime in February that he plans to move to his house in Seremban by the end of the year. And i was like ' end of the year? ohh ok' -- thinking i have plenty of time to save up and find a place to stay on my own. Then things cropped up, and my dad kept changing his mind to move in August, then July and suddenly he tells me JUNE!! Arghh...
It is exciting this new chapter in my life. I decided that i will find a place further away due to budget constraints, and also cuz i do not wanna share an apartment with a stranger, nor let out a room so i can afford an apartment in Damansara Perdana or Kelana Jaya or wherever.
So i have been spending the past weekend driving around and looking at apartments. Last Monday, i had an appointment with an agent and he showed me a 3+1 apartment!Arghh...i was like 'What would i need so many rooms??'.
So the hunt is still on.......
I'm not even sure i'll fix an Astro for the apartment - heck, i will let dad have the tv! Hmm... i might have to find a new job to live comfortably! :) Yes, i know...i know...it has only been a little over 6 months with this job. *itching*
What i look forward to?
1. My own space .... no need to be 'decent'!! ha!!
2. My own stuff and decor (existing stuff)
3. An empty apartment - minimal furnishing
4. Cooking @ home more often - pastries, soups, hmm...
5. Finally displaying my candles and lamps!! yeayy!!
Ok, now i am getting excited all over again...nervous yet excited. Nervous about being really alone yet excited with the prospect of finally living on my own.
Now let's just go find that apartment, ok? *fingers crossed*
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Things that make me smile....
This morning while getting ready for work, i decided to compile alist of things that definitely make me smile...... :D
1. Looking at a baby smile while he/she sleeps - with the belief that angels are playing with her/him... sooo cute!
1. Looking at a baby smile while he/she sleeps - with the belief that angels are playing with her/him... sooo cute!
2. Some notti memories *lips sealed*
3. Goofy moments with my best friends - this is an on-going thing!
4. Reminiscing silly moments while in Argentina - riding a gear-less motorbike, trying to enter a casino (underage), 'haunted stories', the motorbike accident, etc
5. My amazing time with the Orang Asli in Kuala Pilah - trekking (thats where i experienced my first right arm torn muscle and phobia for durians!!)
6. Getting really burnt (really burnt as i LITERALLY shed a layer of skin!!!) while tanning in Bali! No one will ever know (i hope!) how painful it was!
7. My trips to the Philippines - ohgod i sooooooooooo miss the food, the barge trips, the loooong drives and the islands!
8. The NEW YEAR parties!!
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